This Little Light Of Mine

When someone does you wrong you want to with hold all forgiveness. At least I do. I want to let them have it. Scream, curse, and hate them. A lot of that kind of feeling has happened in my life. Today at church Andy spoke from Micah about how we need to offer forgiveness. As much as I don’t want to I know he is right. I must love and show mercy to those who have done me wrong.
This is a world that tells you its all about you and what you want and your feelings and you are more important. God says no. Humility always wins. One of my favorite quotes is “You cannot be a proud follower of a humble leader” and that is ultimately what I want to become…someone who thinks less of them self. The Bible even says that God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.
I want a light that shines for the Lord, not for myself. That is something He has put on my heart lately.
In fact yesterday I heard some adults talking about how they didn’t believe in God. I so wanted to ask why they didn’t, but I was too afraid. I was concerned about how I would look or what would I say? Would I make a fool of myself if I don’t have the right answers? I left there so disappointed in myself. Now I am begging God for that opportunity again. He will give me words to speak. I must grow in Him and not in my insecurities.
Whether someone is mean to me or I’m in a situation where I can stand up for my beliefs I just pray that it would all be to His glory how I handle it and He would be proud of me…a humble follower of a humble leader.


Daddy’s Little Girl

This week has been really hard for me and I am always trying to remind myself that God rules and He holds my whole life. He wipes my eyes dry…the same God who gave me this opportunity. Well my earthly Father wrote me this little note and I just wanted to share it…maybe it’ll be a good reminder for someone who reads it…

I just finished having lunch with Mom and we were discussing your situation. I know this has been very difficult for you. I want to take a second and tell you how proud I am of you.

You are an angel from the Lord. I constantly see His work through you. I am honored that God chose me to be your earthly father. For 17+ years I have had a front row seat to witness what God is doing with your life. What a gift he gave me. I am very humbled and thankful that He put you in my life.

No matter what happens in the next few days, I know that God has a plan for you. I can say this because I have witnessed God’s presents in your journey every step of the way. I know that He will, and is working inside of you now. The master sculptor continues sculpting you today. And what a beautiful work of art you have become.

Please don’t worry about what will happen, or what your classmates will do or say concerning this election. Trust in God! Give it all up to Him. I can promise you that He gave you your talents, and He will help you best use them for His purpose. Have faith in Him even if you don’t understand. I know he has faith in you.

He is very proud of you too. You are one of the special ones. There is a special place for kids like you. You have been built on a solid foundation. You haven’t just been lucky. The depth of your spirit is not built on quicksand. It goes very deep into the bedrock of God’s word.

Continue to fight for what you believe in! Accept the challenge. Understand that the road will sometimes be difficult. But remember, this is the road God has chosen for you. And He puts us through tests so that we remember… we need Him. We MUST rely on Him always.

Embrace the place. He is making you stronger! Hold His hand and He will lead you through the fire. Even when you can’t feel His presence, know that He is standing right beside you. His will be done.

You continue to be an indescribable blessing in my life. You have always given me joy and happiness. I remain blessed with this front row seat to your life. I can’t wait to see what the next scene brings.

I love you,


Sometimes I don’t get how God gets me.

Sometimes I don’t get how God gets me. Yes I know what it says in the Bible and how He knows every thought before I’ve even thought them, but man…He never ceases to amaze me with how much He knows me. I’m at a point where I think all is lost. I’m defeated. Done. Insignificant. Misunderstood. Forgotten. But He shakes me from this depressing defeat. All it takes is 2 short paragraphs and I’m in a crumpled mess. But this is a mess He has cupped in His hands. Jesus Calling is always that punch in the face when I need it or warm hug of comfort. Tonight it was both…

Trust Me, and don’t be afraid. Many things feel out of control. Your routines are not running smoothly. You tend to feel more secure when your life is predictable. Let Me lead you to the rock that is higher than you and your circumstances. Take refuge in the shelter of My wings, where you are absolutely secure.

When you are shaken out of your comfortable routines, grip My hand tightly and look for growth opportunities. Instead of bemoaning the loss of your comfort, accept the challenge of something new. I lead you on from glory to glory, making you fit for My kingdom. Say yes to the ways I work in your life. Trust Me, and don’t be afraid. Jesus Calling By Sarah Young

As I approach the inevitable class officer elections I can’t help but dread them. I’m running for Senior class President and I desperately want to win. I barely won last year and I don’t want the same situation. I think “Have I done enough to sway the half that didn’t vote for me?”. Recently I’ve been breaking into a cold sweat and my heart race goes up when I think about them. I’m so nervous because I’m so passionate and want this SO bad. I loved being President this year.
Through these past few weeks I’ve been clinging to God for reassurance and comfort but I always let the enemy sneak in and convince me that I’m doomed. This Jesus Calling is the final straw. God is shaking me, after all His nudges have not fully penetrated me, telling me to let go. So here I am. I let go. His plan will prevail and He will make all things work together for the good of who love Him. I have nothing to offer this class but what He is in me.
The End.


I’m on my way back from the Junior Retreat as I type this on my phone. The last 2 days have been monumental in the lives of the OCS Class of 2013.
Andy spoke on knowing God not knowing OF God. We worked on figuring out what we wanted to be known for and the legacy we will leave at OCS as well as what we wanted to do as a Senior class to accomplish these goals.
Besides the typical meetings we had we also played basketball, volleyball, warrior ball, and other team building activities. It was so much fun to just be together having fun and bring competitive.
But, oh my goodness the message and worship. They were both phenomenal and really resonated with our class. Thank you Andy and Jason!! The last night of worship was amazing. We were challenged to fix relationships and ask for forgiveness for things because without forgiveness we can’t move on. There was A LOT of that which was awesome.
This morning we all sat in a circle and just shared what had happened to us during the retreat. The tears were flowing from boys and girls equally. It was amazing to see us work together and bond together and become a group that is trusted.
I had a blast and I’m so blessed to be in this class. God will do good works, you just have to have faith in Him.